With Love,


To,
My dearest Love,

Its that day of the year again, when i first caught you staring at me. Those are the memories i am hanging on to my love. Our first meet, first kiss are still so fresh in my memory.I just thought of writing you a love letter. Yea, i know, you would have said "how silly of you sugar"!! But love, how else can i tell you how much i love you!?

Do you remember the chocolate wrappers i showed you!? I still remember the way you laughed at me. Deep down you knew how much i treasured our love. Those red roses, which you said were your symbol of love for me, are still in that old notebook. Roses have dried up, but the memory is still so fresh. And those silly poems you wrote as a joke, i read them every single day. Believe me, as i always said they are just too romantic!! Mushi..

How jealous i used to get when you used to look at other girls. I miss those silly fights and crying for no reason. Love, do you remember when i used to just start fighting for no reason, you used to ask me Sugar, Are you on your periods or something!? God! Love, you know that makes me laugh so hard now. I am so sorry i troubled you a lot with my silliness.

Just one complaint,love. Life isn't as good as it was with you. I feel like i have lost a part of me. The part which i shared is still with you. I am sure you would have said, Sugar, stop reading those novels. you talk like one tragic heroine of the books you read.And it was funny to watch you say those words and also laugh hard. Oh! How much you loved pulling my leg until i cried. But then again your one kiss used to work wonders.

One more thing love, you don't have to worry about me now. I have a grip on myself. And i am doing just fine. I am reading books, listening to our favourite love songs. In fact i watched Titanic the other day all alone. Can you believe that!? But yea, i missed you terribly, love. I am not skipping meals nor getting drunk and dancing around. I am eating on time, meeting friends.I am just being your good girl. Just as i promised.

Christmas is just around the corner, and i have to start shopping. I know it would be boring without you. BTW, how is heaven!? Is it just the way we talked about? I am sure all your pain might have vanished. Tell god that i am angry with him. What about Santa? Is he just like we imagined? I am just waiting eagerly to be with you there. Its totally unfair for us to live in two different world. Cuz i am incomplete without you. And this world some how find it difficult to understand me, unlike you.
I Love You Forever. I Miss You !

With Love ,
Sugar

The Virgin Queen!


Queen Elizabeth I of England, popularly known as The virgin Queen is one of the most powerful women i have ever read about.Her compassion and bravery has left me spellbound. The fact that her highness is called a virgin queen fascinates me. For a Queen like Elizabeth, a very pasionate woman, to remain unmarried and childless made her slip into the history written in gold. While her virginity remains a mystery. I have always been interested in history of different country. Not that i have read plenty. But of little what i have read, the chapter of The Virgin Queen would always remain close to my heart.

The Queen ruled the country of England and Ireland for 45 years, which was Called as the Golden Era. She must have been an extra ordinary woman for she still continue to influence a girl like me. Such an enigmatic queen in the history. She could have been so different in her life. She could have chosen a man of her choice, which she never did. Was it because of her obsessive love for her country which made her submit her whole life in shaping the nation like her own baby!? It could be the reason.

A very rare woman, a very rare Queen indeed. A Queen in a very true sense. Who went down the history for not just being another queen, but for ruling her country with her heart and soul.
She, till today is a unsolved mystery.

Dreamlike!


I like to drift away in my own surreal world. Where my imagination come to life.The reality is too hard to understand.Its cruel and harsh.But in my world, i am safe. My deep dark secrets are safe with me. Thats why i get scared to get into the real world. My world to me is like slipping into flip-flops after wearing high heels whole day.Its far more relaxing and also makes me feel how burdened i was. Going to the world of reality is like getting lost in the woods, coming back home safe is like getting lost in my surreal world!

But it doesn't make me strong. Cuz i am scared even in my own world.I wonder if am strong enough to fall in love again. I am scared getting hurt again.I am scared to see my heart broken again. But will the world understand this!?Is the world started thinking, i have a strong back bone and i am a tough girl!?

That makes me laugh, cuz deep down i am just like any other normal girl.I might pretend like i don't care. I might fight back my tears. But i cant suppress my fears and emotions for long. I know i will break down one day.I am as fragile as every girl out there. The emotional breakdown, mood swings never leave me. Its like i am carrying them wherever i go.

The strange dreams i dream, some i remember when i wake up and some forgotten. Sadly i am not smart enough to interpret my dreams.I feel like life talks to us through our dreams, trying to tell us whats next. But again, i am scared to dream, cuz every dream doesn't come true.

I struggle to balance the real and surreal world. In my world,When the dusk falls, i cant wait to see the moon rising. I know its watching me.And i know there is nothing as beautiful as the new moon. Every morning when i leave to the real world, i have to pretend that sun is just a boiling object and butterfly is just an insect. Strange, isnt it. When a butterfly sits on me, its the perfect ecstasy for me. A very beautiful feeling, which the real world would never understand.

Thats why i am happy to live in a world, where sun is not just a sun, but my morning star. Where the moon is the love symbol and stars just don't stop shining on me. The world where some fairies come down to earth when the dusk falls.The world where i can be just me and dont have to pretend.
We Just need to go to the other side of the river to experiance the dreamlike world.

Just a thought

Cry as hard as you want to.But,

Just make sure when you stop crying,

You will never cry again for the same reason!

Road Romeo!


On the road u bumped into me
Picking my books, u said sorry
Your smile convinced me, thats when
Your fingers touched mine slightly

Walking together we talked all the way
I thought, he is not bad any way
Your presence made me a li'l weak
I guess we have a chance to click

You ordered my favourite maggie
Along with it chocolate brownie
The way you treated me was brill
Never thought i had to pay the bill

You said you will drop me home
I grinned like a cartoon
You asked me to get down at signal
Which was not at all gentle

The fantasy quickly disappeared
When i saw you flirting with that jerk head
I thought you would be my hero
Damn!U proved you are just another Road Romeo!

Why do you care what i feel
Stop pretending, You are so uncool
Stop tryin,You will go nowhere
Get a life, cuz i don't care

PS: Raj ho ya Rohit, sab ek jaise hai Damn It!! :D:P
Just tried some diff poetry :D

Fairy dust!




Life is full of surprises. You know why!? Cuz one fine morning you just wake up lazily. Go to the window and pull the curtains, n what you see is its snowing in your town. Now that's definitely a pleasant surprise.

You walking down the lane lost in your thoughts and bump into some one, which is quite not a surprise, may b u need to b a li'l careful next time.But some days Later you bump into the same person again, well that's not a coincidence. Its a surprise.That's your destiny!

We all have this magic box full of unseen surprise gifts. Gifts like love, passion,courage, happiness. Do we open our gifts or did we just forget that we have one!? Even i am not quite sure if i have opened mine yet.

Surprisingly i have stopped chasing something, which i had no clue about. May be somethings aren't meant be chased.I realised its right here with me, in that invisible box. Now i just let it free and come to me. I need to listen to my heart and do what it says. They say if you listen to what your heart says you will never go wrong.

That's what i am trying to do. I am just setting myself free. Spreading my wings, cuz i know now i am ready to fly. Fly away like a butterfly..Its not just a metaphor i am talking about. We do really have those unseen wings, but it takes a life to realise.

Now is that unfair!? Well i don't think so. Its our fault if we don't know what we have with us. We have a tremendous power to make a huge difference in our lives. I have this gift called smile, which i cant just stop. I guess that's my fairy tale power or gift. I believe that, if not all but at least i leave few enchanted with my smile. May be it brightens up some one's day.

I have learnt to be strong when things aren't goin pretty well. Things never turn up the way i want any way, so why worry about it!? I just need to keep walking, and i believe that some day when i am unaware of whats gonna happen next, a magical door will open up unexpectedly and bring me the whole lot of surprises. Just the feeling of it keeps me going in life. I dunno whether its hope or faith. But it works for me.

It doesn't end here.The struggle continues. It only makes us stronger day by day. might not be smiling all the time. Some days i could be crying hard for no reason.I might lose something precious some day. Amidst of all this struggle i will remember that i still have plenty of surprise gifts to open up. Some, might be small, some too big.

I hope when we are given choices, will choose the right one. But surprises don't ask us to choose. They just come on our way. Leaving us wondering,how did we get this lucky. Reality is Some one out there knows what exactly we deserve.

One shouldn't stop dreaming when some tales in life doesn't have happy endings.
Dream up a new one.

Each one of our life is a fairy tale. So why not live like one!?
Just don't forget to sprinkle the fairy dust in your life!

Smile is Broken

Its so hard to pretend that everything is okay and smile, While deep down you are hiding your pain. Walking with a broken pieces of heart hurts more than a wounded knee.When the sad song comes up you think of him. While walking alone you wish for him to hold your hand. When it feels cold, you wish for him to hold you tight and never let go. The sad time they say will pass by and brings happy time.

But life gets tired of waiting for that happiness, you get used to your misery.The happiness comes n goes, without making a hush. Its funny how we keep looking for it.When will this pain really goes away!?Why is life so hard at some point of time. Every day i feel its falling apart. N i keep searching for the pieces. IS that it? Is that the purpose of my soul!?

The music i thought would heal me one day. But now it doesn't make any sense.Nothing feels good. Who says walking in the rain washes your pain and tears?Its just that the sky is weeping at your broken heart.

Oh! how i feel like ruining away from the crowd and lock myself in the room. My loneliness kills me, but still it comforts me too. I don't want anybody see me crying.Life is so cruel some times. The day time, sunshine doesn't cheer me up.The nights i wish never comes.

How i wish this suffering ends here and give me some peace. But life is of course a stubborn lesson you are forced to learn. I just wish after years when i iook back, the suffering would be worth. Life for me is like a math question.Phew! Just the thought of it makes me run away.

It makes me think again. Whats the point of running away, any way!? Yeaaa i dunno what i am running away from, whom i am trying to ignore. N hell yeaaaa i dunno what i want from my life. Its weird but some times i feel i am growing younger, just like Ben button. Cuz i am supposed to be more matured for my age. But the real me is as confused as a new born baby.

They say what you give to life it gives you back! Damn! I feel like cursing the one who said this. What else should i give to life!? I am done being a good girl and getting my heart bloody broken eavery time.To hell with people who create unnecessary drama in my life. The first thing i am gonna do is to be strong even when my life is fallin apart.

I am done running away. I am done faking my smile.For once i really, truly wanna live my life happily.. I just wanna stop being pathetic. Guess i need to get a life :(